It's been a long year of 2010, 3 weeks left and 2010 is going to end.
A lot of memories, things happened and experienced a lot.
People are growing up everyday.For me, I'd appreciate for what I had experienced because it keeps me growing in knowledge and spiritual.I here to thank God that gave me a chance to lead His CG until end of May.After the month of May, I totally lost direction and myself.I was trying to be steady and firm in God, but sometimes I just let my negative thoughts to control my mind. (Feel so hate myself)It causes me to stand up and fall back, stand then fall, keep repeating. (Isshhh)I had promised God for many times but I can't make it for Him at last. (Feel so sick of it)Sometimes I know that God is speaking to me, but I ignore Him, ignore His words and everything. (Feel so guilty and sorry to God)God never gave up me and I back to Him.-Now, There is the only way that I can walk for.
-For Him, for me, I want to be firm.
-I just want to give all out of myself for God in these 3 weeks.
-Treat every small serving as BIG.
At last, people always say that 21-year-old birthday is so important but I think that just a normal age for me.
Somemore, a person tell me in facebook that 1day of December is special.
Hmm.. Celebration, party, not what I want now. (Got heart then can lar) =)
The most special day is 1225, focus on that 3 days.